I'm doing this for me, not you. I assume that no one will read any of this anyway. If they do, I don't expect them to glean some guiding insight into their own lives by living vicariously through mine. I'm a bitter, cynical, depressed, emotionally unstable, hardened, and truly unhappy man. Doesn't that make you feel warm and fuzzy? Doesn't that make you want to explore the nooks and crannies of my psyche?